No matter your age, you should always have goals. When you have a big God, you have big goals. My God is big. With Him anything is possible.
Did you ever hit road blocks along the way when trying to reach a goal? Recently I have been hitting lots of road blocks. I once read that you can go through life as a Tigger or an Eeyore. I guess you could say I have a little Tigger in me. Of course, I can be Eeyore at times too, but lately other Eeyores have been getting to me.
Last year, I decided that I was going to finally achieve my dream of becoming a Special Education teacher. In high school and college I worked in an Autistic Support classroom and I loved every second of it. I decided in college that I wanted to teach high school and at that time you couldn’t major in Secondary Education and Special Education.
After 17 years, I finally registered and decided to start class this October to become a Special Education teacher. Apparently this is a horrible decision. I have had quite a few Eeyore encounters since “sharing the news” and they have all been with educators.
That’s right, educators. Educators who teach elementary school, middle school, high school, regular education and Special Education in various schools. Some are joking, but some are not.
I never put too much thought into the comments at first, but when the start date of the class came closer, I started having doubts. Did I really want to do this? Was this worth it? Was this God’s plan for my life?
How stupid could I be to let others influence me and cause doubt in my life? These educators all had one thing in common. They were talking to a teacher, but they were also talking to a mom of a child with Special Needs. My life is an IEP. It is filled with meetings, appointments, goal setting, therapies, picture schedules, social stories and paperwork. Having a child with a disability wasn’t a choice, but thank God I was given the opportunity to be Camryn’s mom. This blessing has filled my life with joy.
And you know what? I already know that “those”parents can be difficult because I am sometimes that parent. You would be too. If you teach a child with an IEP and aren’t reading it or following it, parents should be difficult. I also know that there is a lot of paperwork involved because I have to fill it all out over and over again. This paperwork is my access to helping Camryn grow. Without this paperwork we wouldn’t be able to evaluate her progress or decide what we are going to try next.
Camryn’s day is filled with people who love what they are doing. You need to have passion to work with children who have Special Needs. Trust me, I know how difficult it is. I know it involves more work. I know because I live it. Camryn is a lot more “work” than my other girls, but the rewards are well worth it. It is all about perspective. Is this job, this child, this life I am living a burden or a blessing?
No matter what dreams you have for yourself, don’t let Eeyores stand in the way. Tiggers change the world. And by the way, I am three weeks into my first class and have learned so much already. Not only am I going to make a great Special Education teacher, but I am on my way to becoming even more of an advocate for my daughter and angels just like her.