I realize despite the darkness we sometimes feel, having a child with a disability is not God’s fault, it’s not my fault, it’s not Dave’s fault, it’s not a fault. In every situation there is some satisfaction in blaming someone, but I will not blame God.
Camryn is a plan. A perfect plan. A child who was fearfully and wonderfully made. A child who will turn into an adult with a purpose. Together Jesus will walk with Camryn on her journey and then give her the greatest reward in Heaven where she will run, jump, and have the best conversations with Jim Henson and Walt Disney.

I always envision her thanking her therapists and her teachers for loving on her, being patient with her and teaching her so much. I think she will give Dave and I validation that we were the best parents that she could have ever asked for. I picture her hugging her little sisters and thanking them for all the years they tucked her into bed, acted out her Muppets and read books to her.
How can’t this be a perfect plan? We all have dark days, there are so many questions that we will never know the answer to, our tears have flowed like rain, but rain creates rainbows and I picture an eternity filled with lots of rainbows.



  1. Terri on April 3, 2017 at 11:25 pm

    Love this Kristi!!! My mom said something about a rainbow right before she passed and it rained and then the sun came out the day we buried her. “Tears flowed like rain” and then there was a full rainbow across the sky! It was beautiful. It is well, with my soul!

  2. Lois King on April 4, 2017 at 4:09 pm

    Where do you find these beautiful words and thoughts. I know they come from your heart. Love you

  3. Granny Hertzog on April 5, 2017 at 5:18 pm

    God does all things well and He gave us Camryn Grace. She has taught us more in her 12 years about love, simplicity, and grace than I could ever imagine. She has such a pure heart and fun sense of humor. What a wonderful gift she is to our family. And God gave her the best parents, sisters, grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, dog and cat to complete her life, plus an awesome church, school, therapists, babysitters, teachers and of course, her best friend, McKenzie!

  4. Kristi on April 21, 2017 at 10:34 pm

    Love this and your Mom!

  5. Kristi on April 21, 2017 at 10:35 pm


  6. Kristi on April 21, 2017 at 10:36 pm

    I couldn’t agree more! We are all a great team!!

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