After my meeting with the pulmonologist I went back into Kristi’s room to discuss everything with her. I decided not to tell her the “life threatening situation’ because I did not want to put fear in her mind or heart.
She looked perfect to me and I truly believed that the doctor was telling me the worse case scenario. Isn’t that what doctors sometimes do? She understood the procedure and was ok with it. She has always liked naps and the thought of a 3 day nap was pretty exciting to her!
In all seriousness, we were told that she would wake up in 3 days but still have the tubes in her mouth and throat and not be able to talk. They asked us to make a picture board of commonly used words and phrases to help Kristi communicate when she woke up. We discussed what we would want to talk about and drew pictures of various items relating mostly to the kids and her health.
To this day Kristi does not remember this conversation or anything after the c-section for that matter. When the anesthesiologist came in I was asked to leave. Little did I know this could have been my last words to my beautiful wife. We said our goodbyes which we thought were for three days.
I was sent to the waiting room outside of the ICU and started making nervous phone calls to our families. Kristi’s mom had just entered the hospital when I called so she joined me in the waiting room within minutes. My parents and Kristi’s dad left work and headed to the hospital. Kristi’s mom and I anxiously awaited news that she was sedated and intubated but that news never came. I was so thankful that she was with me.
After about 15 minutes there was a frantic call over the loudspeaker, CODE BLUE – ICU. Then another call, CARDIOLOGY TO ICU – STAT. Then another, PULMONOLOGY TO ICU – STAT. At that point we were freaking out.
I then saw the anesthesiologist in the hallway that was caring for Kristi. I saw him walk out of the ICU thinking he was coming to talk to me. He refused to look into the waiting room and make eye contact with me. I knew in my heart at that moment that it was Kristi that was the reason for the code blue announcements filling the loudspeakers of the hospital. His look left me shocked because his avoidance made me believe that Kristi was dead. My Mom and Mother-In-Law were praying as I just stood there blankly.
How could this be happening? I was just with my wife who despite feeling sick, was so happy and excited to meet our girls and see Camryn and Brynlee. It is amazing how life can change in an instant and how we would be entering the biggest storm of our lives.