When you have kids, you’ll experience emotions that you didn’t even know existed. Nothing could make feel me more at peace than a sleeping baby who cried for the past few hours. Getting four kids to nap at the same time, made me feel like an all-star athlete. Going an entire day without the kids arguing, makes me feel like I am a parenting rock star.
A temper tantrum from a three year old, could make me question my existence. Camryn making her Chewbacca noise for an hour straight makes me not at all feel bad for her and makes me not even care that it very well may be a result of the Autism. Sorry, just keeping it real… ?
Our kids make us all feel many emotions.
Having a child with a disability has given me such strong feelings of anguish and sorrow, emotions I have yet to feel with the other girls. I remember years ago hiding in my bathroom, laying on the floor, sobbing after reading the evaluation report that Cam had a Moderate Intellectual Disability. For some reason, that diagnosis hurt so much more than Global Developmental Delay or Autism. Like labels matter or define these kids!! An evaluation is not a life sentence. It was a moment of such despair though.

On the other hand,  I have never felt such hope, love, strength and joy. As a matter of fact, I never even realized I could be full of so much hope, love, strength and joy. Our other girls provide us with so much, but Camryn is a daily reminder of how anything is possible. Watching a child with a disability reach milestones is surreal and I would compare it to having VIP access to the best show in the world.



  1. Kellyann Mitchell on April 5, 2017 at 6:47 pm

    Oh, how true Kristi! I am sure you have days where it is hard to always see the hope, love, strength and joy but always returning to those feelings is what keeps us all going, right. I totally relate to all the mixed up feelings. I am also a big believer in anything is possible. Case in point, at age 14 Cullen just learned how to tie his shoes. 🙂

  2. Lois King on April 5, 2017 at 6:55 pm

    Because Camryn has such fantastic parents, she will continue to shine and amaze you.

  3. April Rose on April 5, 2017 at 7:40 pm

    You are amazing! I always love your fresh, true and raw emotions in every one of your posts. I don’t have children yet, but I love how you are keeping it real!
    One day, when you have time, I would love to purchase and read one of your books that you will hopefully write! You write so raw and honest and lovingly. You write how people, especially parents, feel. And with 4 girls and 2 at the same age and with everything that you have gone through; you will make other moms be able to relate and have a laugh along with it and know that life is bearable and they can get through it!

  4. Trish on April 6, 2017 at 6:20 am

    Love?Love❤Love? the opening meme … such a true reflection of everyday life as an autism mom!

  5. Kristi on April 21, 2017 at 10:32 pm

    I love that he learned to tie his shoes. We talked about that so much!!

  6. Kristi on April 21, 2017 at 10:32 pm


  7. Kristi on April 21, 2017 at 10:33 pm

    Thanks so much. A book sounds like a lot
    of work…??

  8. Kristi on April 21, 2017 at 10:33 pm

    Thanks for seeing that!!

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