I have nothing to say. We are in a good season here and have been for a couple of months and that has left me speechless and blogless and so appreciative. As I say this, I am watching a sick 7 year old sleep. As a working Mom, I secretly love when I get to stay home with a sick kid. There is nothing at a job that can’t wait until tomorrow. Early in my career I would worry about missing work. It is amazing that I worry so much more now about missing home. Home is going very quickly. Soon we will have a 12 year old, 8 year old and two 6 year olds. How does this happen?
During this season of life I have made a commitment to hold on a little tighter, play more, unplug my kids a whole lot more, try my best not to let my kids see me with a phone in MY hand, talk nicer, show them how much I love their Dad, yell less, and let them be messy. It is working. Things are still crazy here, but I can’t change everything.
Since September we’ve made a lot of mistakes. For example I ran out of gas on the turnpike, the fire department had to come to our house, we’ve had to climb through the garage window twice to get into our locked house, we missed an entire act of a Broadway show because we had the wrong start time, the Christmas tree fell, Dave told Camryn that her big Santa gift was from Costco 20 minutes after she opened it on Christmas morning, Dave totaled his truck, everyone had the stomach bug and everyone may be getting it again. And this is all okay. None of this matters. What matters is perspective. During this season, I have chosen joy. I wake up earlier and spend time reading and not scrolling through Facebook, we stay in our pajamas more on the weekends and we keep a lot of our free time exactly what it is supposed to be, free.
There are periods of your life when you are reminded that life it too short. I am focusing on living my life for God and my family. I am not living this short time on Earth to please others because let’s be real, there are some people who will never be pleased. I am pleasing Jesus by being thankful for what I have and being confident that I am perfect in HIS eyes.
So here is to another cup of coffee while I enjoy my quiet house with one sleeping child. The circus will be home soon, but I am going to relish in how calm this season is. That is God’s promise at work and I know first hand that despite the craziness, things always have a way of looking up.