imageI hate to tell you this very personal fact, but I haven’t been to the OB in 5 years. I was terrified of returning to the OB because of all the trauma I experienced after delivering Aubrey and Courtney. I know I could have chosen another doctor, but I just wanted to avoid the entire experience. When I delivered Aubrey and Courtney my OB was the first of many people who saved my life. She was a major player in recognizing my illness and informed my family after delivery the seriousness of my illness. If she didn’t make the decision to deliver the babies, all three of us would have been dead the next morning. That sentence still gives me chills. I am so thankful for her decision. I can only imagine how difficult it was for her.

The last time I saw her I was transported from Bryn Mawr Rehab. It was such a humbling experience. I felt so defeated. I was transported via a wheelchair accessible van and wheeled in to the OB office. At this point in my life I had such hatred in my heart. I was so bitter. Jesus was not at the forefront of my mind. All sense of pride was completely gone. I still felt so sick. I don’t remember the appointment. All I can remember is feeling so stinkin’ sorry for myself, there being a lot of tears, but truly not thankful for how far I had come. Unfortunately that thankfulness came much later and the understanding of the miracle became so clear to me.

On Friday, I returned to the OB who delivered my twins. This was a difficult step because of the emotion the overall experience still stirs up. As I sat in the waiting room, so many emotions came flooding back. This is where the journey started. When my name was called and I was reunited with the OB who delivered my sweet girls both of us were holding back tears. She informed me that after delivering the twins and spending the night at the hospital, she was leaving for Mexico the next morning. From the plane and from Mexico, she checked on my condition relentlessly. She is such a selfless and kind woman who truly makes her patients such a priority. Seeing her today felt so triumphant. Thanking the people who saved my life is such a gift. I may never have had this opportunity. Reuniting her with Baby A, Baby B, Dave and the rest of the family was such a blessing. I will forever be thankful for this confident doctor who used her best judgement. People come into our lives and leave such footprints on our hearts. I can’t imagine if I never had the chance to hold my twins or see Brynlee or Camryn again. The thought that my girls would only me know me through pictures and stories is heartbreaking. For some reason 2011 was not my time to leave this earth and that brings me on my knees today filled with adoration for God. One day I can’t wait to stand before Jesus, but I have so much left to do on Earth.

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14 Comments

  1. Ruth on July 18, 2016 at 1:29 pm

    So many if us were praying for you in those scary times!! I didn’t even know you, then, but knew that God could do a miracle! Praise God for what He has done!



  2. Janice on July 18, 2016 at 1:36 pm

    Praise you Jesus for the path you have lead Kristi! He’s not done with you yet. I can’t wait to read your blogs !



  3. Diane Karchner on July 18, 2016 at 1:46 pm

    I can remember that prayer time…I didn’t know you, just ‘of’ you. God is so good in honoring the prayers of those not known.



  4. Aunt Gail on July 18, 2016 at 4:08 pm

    We all prayed day and night that God would save you! Your family would not be complete without you! You are a special person Kristi and God certainly has plans for you hereā™”



  5. Barbara Beal on July 18, 2016 at 4:12 pm

    Thank you for sharing your story. You are the constant teacher. You autism month posts were so thoughtful and though provoking. You will never know how many people your words will touch. Good luck with your blog! You are inspiring to so many. Love you sweetie! Barb



  6. Amanda OBrien on July 18, 2016 at 5:39 pm

    This post speaks to me. After going through my own traumatic delivery, I am still unable to visit the OB/GYN without breaking down in tears. Thanks for sharing and making me feel normal- or at least not so alone.



  7. Lois on July 18, 2016 at 7:21 pm

    Love you Kristi



  8. Stacey Corcoran on July 18, 2016 at 7:57 pm

    I remember the day that you gave birth to the twins. I was actually just getting done work and walked out to a flat tire in my car. I remember being so annoyed and angry because I just wanted to get home. Then as I was waiting for the guy to fix my flat, my mom called me. She said Dave Hertzog’s wife is very ill and to please say a prayer. So, my anger and annoyance quickly vanished and I felt complete sadness for you and your family. I prayed for you all of the way home. I continued to pray and kept looking for updates on the page that Dave started. I think you are a true inspiration to all. I don’t know you well, but I certainly know Dave and my heart was heavy for him and you during that difficult time. I look forward to reading your blog. I enjoy reading your posts during autism awareness month. You make me laugh and shed a tear or two at times. But, most importantly, you’ve made me realize that there is no such thing as a perfect parent. But, as long as you have faith, love and happiness, that’s all you need. You are a wonderful mother and I am so happy that you pulled through and are living your life with your amazing family.



  9. Kelly Mitchell on July 18, 2016 at 11:00 pm

    Oh Kristi, what can I say. I love that you are sharing your story this way. What courage to be so vulnerable. I love you my friend. You make me proud to spell my name woman.



  10. Katie on July 18, 2016 at 11:02 pm

    So thankful you and your daughters are safe, happy and healthy!!!
    Look forward to more posts!



  11. Stacey on July 19, 2016 at 2:21 am

    I remember those days like it was yesterday… So scary… I Remember exactly where I was & what I was doing & all of the calls with Dave & visits & prayers! So glad you are all here to share this story! Love you guys!!



  12. Sandra Tindale on July 19, 2016 at 5:24 pm

    You touched so many people with your courage. You hung on to the smallest threads of life and fought like a tiger for all your little cubs! Many of us clung on every word Nancy wrote and even those of us who were not in the pews each Sunday bombarded heaven with prayers for your recovery and for the doctors to work their magic. They all did – and here you are today. I am sure you have your moments to which you are certainly entitled to, just know you are loved by your family and hundreds of people you don’t even know. YOU GO GIRL; I THINK YOU HAVE A BOOK IN YOU!!
    Love, Sandy Tindale (my daughter is a good friend of Jill’s & had a baby 7 mos. ago).



  13. Jill Morrisroe on July 21, 2016 at 11:16 am

    So proud of you for sharing your story and bringing inspiration and humor to such a tragic time in your life. Love you!!!!!



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